I'm back!

Wow! It's been a while since I have posted, which means I am going to have to get you caught up.

My grandmother passed the day after my last post, which we all knew was coming. It was sad, but I'm glad she is in a better place now. :) Now, about my weight.

About the time my grandmother passed, I became a little relaxed when it comes to counting calories. I mean, I didn't go hog wild, but lets just say I wasted 1.5 months.

As of today I am 171.9. Back in April it was like the weight stopped coming off. I couldn't drop another pound. It was so frustrating. My original goal for July 1 was 162, but it doesn't look like that will be happening unless I cut out all carbs! lol

I have also learned something: Wii Fit Plus is better for exercising than Just Dance 2. I love them both, but I see more results with Wii Fit Plus.

For a couple of weeks in May, I quit exercising all together. Why? #1 I got a bad sunburn, and jumping around almost made me cry. #2 When my skin started to peel, my skin was like leather, and stretching in any direction hurt.

The good news is that last Monday, I decided to get strict on myself again. I have gone back to exercising at least 40 minutes a day, absolutely no soda at all, and I am back to eating Lean Cuisines for lunch at work every day. I just wish they weren't stacked with sodium. Geezzz, they are so high in sodium.

In the past week I have lost 1.8 pounds, which I am thrilled about! So, I am going to stay on track with my Lean Cuisines and small dinner portions. Hopefully this next week will yield another pound gone!

not about weight

First I will update you on my weight. I have met my target weight of 173. Yessss! Now, on to more important things.

My grandmother is in the hospital, and they are expecting her to pass soon, but I'm praying so hard for a miracle. You just don't understand. I am an optimist. I believe in miracles, and sometimes we hear about people who are told they are dieing, but live much longer. Something miraculous happens, and they defy the odds. That's what I am hoping for. That's what I need.

When I found out these "were her last days", I felt my heart break for the first time in my life. I feel a sadness that I've never felt before, but my prayers always consist of, "I believe in miracles, and if she has lasted this long, then maybe the doctors are wrong." I want a miracle for her. Just a little while longer...

All I can think of are things like, "When she's better, I am going to go take her on a vacation to the beach. I am going to do this for her.... I am going to do that for her..." I know it's God's will, but I can't help but think that this is not supposed to be the end for her. But as long as she is fighting the cancer and the many, many other medical problems in her body, I know that there is some reason she has not passed yet. Some reason. I'm not sure what the reason could be, but I will hold on until the end, and pray for a miracle. Pray that the doctors are wrong, pray that somehow her body fights to stay with us a while longer.

update

The past week has been weird in the weight department. I will explain...

As of today I'm still 175, but I'll admit that's probably because I've been eating more potatoes than I normally do.

My husband and I bought some fish fillets, and I always limit myself to two. That's fine. But we also have french fries, and I don't measure them. If I had to guess, I'd say I eat 20 fries. Hmm, is that a lot? lol

Whenever the weather gets warmer, we cook out, probably ever weekend. But we always grill potatoes with cheese, so that's something I have re-introduced to my life. Shamie on me.

I'd like to say I am down another pound, but no, not this week. My goal weight for April 2 is at 173, and I still have high hopes of achieving that goal. I have plenty of time, though I need to stay away from a few things I've ate recently: potatoes and pizza.

I've found that my weight fluctuation has been crazy. One night I weighed myself at 179.9, and the next morning.... 175.5. Whhhaaatt?

get low

Woo hoo! 175 on the scale, and I'm just tickled. This is so real to me now, and I can't believe I have left 180 in the dust.

I have until March 31 to be at my goal, but I'm to the point where I don't just want to meet my goal, I want to go above and beyond.

As far as my clothing goes, everything is getting sloppy, especially my pants. Yuck. They are big in the leg area, but the waist is still okay. I look at my stomach everyday, and while I notice a little change, I want my stomach to fall off first! But, I can't control that, so there is no reason to complain.

I have been neglecting my abs, and I'm ashamed to say it. My plans are to have a firm stomach someday, but I've go to start doing my Wii Fit again. My new game is just so addicting, that all I want to do is dance.

In the food world, I think sweets are making me sick. Today I ate a piece of chocolate cake, and my stomach hurt so bad afterward. So now, I don't even enjoy chocolate. But I tell you what I do love... YOGURT! Yogurt with fruit and granola in it. Yummmm.

I feel very proud of myself, and I am especially proud to just get a compliment from other people. Then, I truly realize that this is working.

why can't i love vegetables?

I hate veggies. Seriously, I do. Well, let me just summarize the veggies I eat and how I eat them:

Tomatoes - I only eat them raw in salsa. I hate them in salads, detest them on a hot burger, but love ketchup. I love them stewed as part of veggie soup.

Corn - I only eat corn in veggie soup.

Carrots - I hate them raw, and typically only eat them in veggie soup.

Celery - Ha! Fat chance you'd ever get that crap past the hangy ball in the roof of my mouth.

Broccoli - See the Celery above

Peas - See the Celery above

Cauliflower - Ick!

Cucumbers - Eeew

Lettuce - Love! But only with salad dressing :{

Cabbage - Nope. Never. Ugh. Ick

You see where this is going, right?



I have always wished that I could love veggies. Heck, if I had it my way, I'd be a veggie fanatic, and I'd just gobble down those little soil-dwellers in a minute. But no, my middle name is "Carb".